When I was a little girl, I loved hanging around all the adults. Kid conversations weren't as fun as what the grownups were talking about. However, if my mom was in the middle of a conversation with someone and I interrupted, she always reminded me to wait until they were done talking.
To a 6-year-old, waiting for several minutes always felt like several hours. Why did I have to wait? Doesn't my mom realize what I have to say is IMPORTANT?
Now, many years later, I've realized that waiting to speak isn't just about being polite.
Don’t get me wrong, it is OK talk. But there will come a time when God has you in a Hush Season.
Anyone who knows me, knows I have the gift of gab. I know, it doesn't sound like a gift, but it truly is if geared in the right direction.
When I was in middle school, this beautiful gift was used so much that I was named the “detention queen” by my assistant principal. It wasn't because I was causing trouble. It wasn't even because I wasn't doing my work. It was because when I finished my work, I turned around and started talking to people around me.
Little did I know what my assistant principal called a "nuisance to the class", would one day become the weapon that God uses to help others.
There's a difference between your voice being silenced and your "Hush" season.
For years I wasn't allowed to speak because my voice was silenced with fear, condemnation or shame.
I was always afraid of saying the wrong thing because I didn't want to sit through a 2 hour lecture of how I didn't know my place.
I didn't dare have a difference of opinion because I was the one who was wrong.
So, it got to the point that just did what I was told to do while screaming on the inside in hopes that someone would hear me; but they never did.
When we can't speak about the hurt, we are going through, it comes out in different ways.
We wallow in self-pity and love when people pet our troubles. We talk out of turn not giving others a chance to speak. We constantly correct people when we should just be listening. We always make the conversation about us.
We purposely choose bad behavior so it will get noticed. We talk in circles. And finally, we talk so much that we interrupt others.
These actions are screaming: LISTEN TO ME!!! This comes from being forcefully silenced.
So, what makes me an expert on all these things? Well because I was this person.
Your Hush Season is totally different.
Although silence and Hush have the same meaning they act as two different action verbs (at least for me)
God brought me to a Hush season because I had to shut out all the noise and only hear HIM. In my Hush Season, God brought me through the valley so he could whisper that there was a mountain top awaiting me. I had to start listening to that still small voice instead my own toxic thoughts. I started listening to the voice of God instead of just hearing the messages.
When you don't have anyone to listen to your meaningless conversations, your complaining about your horrible life (that you won't change), your job, your lack of a job, your worthless friends, your too many friends, what you're going to do this weekend or what you're not going to do because your too broke to enjoy your life, etc.
Do you get what I am saying?
When God asks you to Hush...its not because He is forcing you to be silent, it is so you can truly listen to what He has to say to you.
It’s hard because I still feel like the 6-year-old girl trying to CRAM my whole conversation with God so I can go about my business.
Yet... He keeps asking me to Hush.
He is not trying to steal my voice or bring me shame. He is trying to speak to this season of my life.
Many of you today, have been in the place where your voice was never heard.
Maybe your mom abandoned you. Maybe your dad didn't care to hear about what was going on in your life. Maybe your husband/wife is making you feel less than but you’re too afraid to tell them because it will turn into another fight.
Whatever it is, all these things have stolen your voice.
God wants to bring you into a Hush season so you can hear what He has to say about your situation. I am slowly at the end of my Hush season and I have learned a lot.
I learned that in order to be a good listener, you must first learn to listen. Sounds simple but it wasn't for me. I had my opinion and my words had to be heard.
Now, I just HUSH because in order to know where I am going, I must listen to my GPS (Gods Positioning System) in my life.
Today if you need to be free from the cage of silence, you also may go through a Hush Season. Its OK to be silent with God.
Its His way of leading you out of the wilderness and into His promised land with authority and power.
Don’t ever lose your voice, just allow God to show you how to use it.
Broken Beautiful Ministries
Chrissie Moore is a mother and grandmother from Keller Texas. She is a survivor of mental, emotional, verbal and sexual abuse. She has a passion to help other women who are seeking freedom.