I haven’t blogged in over a year.
Everyone does different things to relax and unwind. Some run, some cook, some read, listen to music or paint.
I had stopped writing because fear. It wasn’t that I couldn’t find material to write about, it was the fear of what I felt others were saying about me that left me paralyzed.
I had battled this beast before and won. But this time when it returned, it came at a time in my life when I had become the most vulnerable.
Now vulnerability is not a bad thing. As a matter of fact, it takes courage to be vulnerable. Especially when you’ve lost someone you love, battled a disease, gone through a divorce or lost a child (through death or they no longer speak to you).
Whatever it was that left you afraid to trust again; learning to be vulnerable with people again is hard.
God doesn’t work in coincidences, happenstance or accidents. What God does do, is connect the dots behind the scenes where we can’t see.
Today I had the privilege of interviewing a very special young lady on my SoulFit Podcast. Her name is Alexis Newlin and she is the host of The Brave Podcast. As we began the conversation, the Holy Spirit just moved. It’s like nuggets kept dropping throughout the whole show. I literally held back the tears because I knew what God was doing.
I hadn’t realized that even though I had walked through so much freedom in the last 6 years, I was still paralyzed with the fear of what people thought about me.
I was stuck and I didn’t even recognize it.
Isn’t it amazing that the story of the boiling frog doesn’t make sense until you’re the frog?
The premise is that if a frog is put in boiling water, it will jump out, but if the frog is put in lukewarm water and then its brought to a boil very slowly, it can’t recognize the danger and will be cooked to death.
What I realized today is that vulnerability is not your enemy and faith doesn’t show up in the absence of fear.
We have to walk with faith as we push through the fear; even if people say things about you that aren’t true.
That means we have to fight scared, walk when we’re injured and follow God’s voice when we can’t see Him or the plan He has for us.
I want to encourage you today that if God is calling you do write, sing, teach, preach or even love again, then do it scared and faith WILL show up to help you fight through it.
SoulFit Podcast/ The Brave Podcast are both found on ApplePodcast. Check out our interview below:
Chrissie Moore is a mother and grandmother from Keller Texas. She is a survivor of mental, emotional, verbal and sexual abuse. She has a passion to help other women who are seeking freedom.