The Wound Collector

We’ve all experience wounds.
Some are flesh wounds, some heart wounds. But how can we tell if we are truly healed or if we are a wound collector? 
 For me, I knew I was a collector of wounds, except I didn’t understand why. I got saved 26 years ago. I served God, I went to church, I ministered and prayed for people, but guess what? I was a wound collector.
How in the world does something like this even happen?  How do we hold on to something or someone who hurt us 10, 15 or even 20 years ago? 
Its easy to remember the hurt and since I didn’t recognize what I was doing, I continued in my unhealthy cycle of pain.
I was taught, “Bless those who curse you, turn the other cheek, pray for those who dispitefully use you” but even though I did what the word said, my hurt didn’t go away.
My wound collection got bigger.
 Then one day after going through my recovery, I realized that I collected wounds because I never learned how to process my pain. I had all this anger; all this hate and I didn’t know what to do with it. I shoved it down so far because I didn’t want people to know I wasn’t perfect Christian.  
Friends, this is such a lie from the enemy. No one will ever have it all together. ever…
When I finally cried out to God and asked I was doing wrong, He didn’t scold me, nor did He yell at me. All He said was “confess”. I thought confess? Like just say it? Out loud?  
 You know the awesome thing about God, is that He really does hear us. He wants us to be whole and that night He definitely heard me.
So, what was the key?  I was finally honest with myself and I had to confess that I didn’t have it all together despite what others saw. I was so busy ‘doing’ for Him that I wasn’t “being” with Him.  
I want to bring hope to those of you who may also be wound collectors. Maybe you were abused like me, maybe you are still hurting from that broken relationship, or maybe you were a Christian and your wounds came from those in your church. Whatever the wound is, if you bring it to the Lord and be truly honest and confess, even if that means that you were angry and cussed people out in your head, it will be the first step to your healing and you don’t have to hang on to the pain any longer.
Jesus promised us that He heals the brokenhearted and BINDS UP ALL THEIR WOUNDS (Psalm 147:3)
You don’t have to be the wound collector. Let the Lord heal your wounds, so you can be free!
 
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~Broken Beautiful  
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